kwento sa friendster-a happy ending

AKO'y NAHUHUMALING SA...yo

---------- well sa friendster I stumbled upon this group of filipino lgbt. browsing through, merong isang story na i got curious. actually I love ready short stories about love and all that. I used to go to peyups.com and read through their stuffs-lalo na pag love stories. KAso I think lately di na mashadong naguupdate dun.

anyway i found the story to be very simple.. ung words and all that.. sobrang easy read. so kahit mejo may kahabaan siya... natapos ko naman. HERE's the part that made me cry :( huhuhu

"Kase, I wanted you to think about yourself kahit minsan. That's why I never
bothered to bother. I thinked about us, that night, that time we were together I
wanted what we had to last. Sa tingin mo pag nagsama tayo maasikaso mo pag-aral
mo. Sa panahong kinilala kita, puro ibang tao na lang asa isip mo, puro
kapakanan nila ni hindi man lang iniisip sarili mo. You always thinked about me,
my sakeKung nagsama tayo when we were in college, you wouldn't reach this far...
And baka dun pa lang, we would have ended thingsI know everything that happened
in your life, your achievements, your goals. Bong kept me updated, and he
promised not to tell me about me knowing about these things." he said to me in a
harsh voice.His voice mellowed,"Alam mo ba, na walang araw na hindi ako nagdasal
after your graduation that you reach your dreams and get wherever you want to be
in your life ng hindi ako nakakasagabal. Pero higit sa lahat, I prayed to God na
hindi mo kalimutan ang pangako kong mahal kita, and maski ngayon it hasn't
changed. I love you so much, for me to wait all these years. I can't take it any
longer"

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this part here makes me wonder... now that I have this person in my life na sobrang mahal ko. Syempre gusto ko maabot niya rin ung mga dreams niya simula pa noon. Gusto ko rin na may sarili siyang buhay apart from me. MArami akong gusto para sa kanya... though yun nga... gusto ko yung mga yun di ko naman kasi talga alam kung anu yung gusto niya eh...

Pero narealize ko rin its too late now. we already have our lives intertwined planning things for both of us.... hmmm...

on the other hand narealize ko rin how painful it is for me at sa kanya. and Ayoko maramdaman niya yung pain na ganun.

I REALLY LOVE YOU... alam mo yun diba? miss na miss na miss na kita.

Kung kaya ko lang talga sabihing ayoko na dito at umuwi na lang diyan. Sana may lakas ako ng loob to break other people's heart and be more decisive for myself.