feel better now...

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I FEEL much better now. After a week of craziness, pressure and depression I feel much better now. I still don't know what I want, pero after I talked with hou, i felt much better now. Ewan ko, nung una nagaaway pa kami, im hesitant to open up. I guess di lang talga ako vocal na tao. So I asked her to read this, my blog. And I think from there she kinda understood. She listened. She asked questions that I can answer. Again, she rescued me from a deep shithole. I haven't been able to sleep good at night, haven't been able to laugh and smile for a long time.. ung totoo.. but last night, i felt loved ulit. I felt that someone cared and wanted me. so I should give her the biggest T-H-A-N-K-Y-O- U, for staying with me, helping me sa kung anong kaya nya and for simply talking and listening to me. Yun lang. Sobrang hirap lang kasi for the past few days. Sobrang bigat ng pressure sa chest ko and my brains just kept on thinking ng kung ano anong stuffs. Sobrang nasisira na ata ang ulo ko, but luckily i have her, thankyou. Kahit nagaway muna tayo and nagangilan bago ka nakinig.

I still have the to make decisions. I stil have to think about stuff, but at least for a few hours last night, I felt better. I felt relieved. And nakahinga ulit ng maayos. Though ngayon I can feel it slowly creeping back into my head and chest. I can't escape but thank you for allowing me to be happy kahit ilang oras lang kagabi. I love you.