withdrawn... dont ask y. F*** off!

AKO'y NAHUHUMALING SA... WALA!



And so here I am. Its Saturday. I have nothing but tears. I feel nothing except aches. I can call it pain, im numb outside. I've grown my skin---impenetratable. I needed you. Well you can go. I am disappearing. Thoughts are smoke diffusing into thin air. I am choking. I cannot breathe. I beg for me to let go. I cannot fly.I am here, grounded and gone. You don't tell me what to feel, u don't ask me these things. I want to be me. Tell you what, i can do whatever I want. SHiT! I don't know what I want. Y am I talking to you. U are insignificant! Dont u pretend.Dont you dare ask how am I doing. Oh that's right. U never did these days. You were pretending. You want everythign to be about you. You never listen. You never care. OH! If ur bored I remember, now you are learning how to listen. Coz you do not have anythign to do.

I do not know what to think. I am not thinking. I am talking not even thingking.
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I am mad at you. But I shouldn't tell right? Does it matter? not really so y bother. It was planned oh wait sorry let e re-phrase it. I planned it. you didn;t say a word. until it was time for me to talk, now you are talking. Actually now its only you who is talking. Did you even bother to ask how Im doing? You are becoming like them. You wnat everything to be around you. I cant stand it. I am choking. I cannot breathe. I do not know what to do. I do not care. Oh shit I do care. I cant let it out. Its crowding my insides. ITs painful, there's pressure. I do not want to think. I just want to go. I want to disappear. Do not ask me anymore questions.
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I DO NOT CARE!!!!!! I DON't LIKE EVERYTHING! SHIT!